Feel the love...

And put your head down...rest slowly into Child's Pose...and feel the love coming up through the earth surrounding you with healing warmth....

How I wanted to feel the love my Yoga instructor was calling forth yesterday. My favorite pose, the Child's Pose...where you feel so swallowed up by the world was not cutting through the black cloud that has been hovering overhead for the past few weeks. Today is the first day I feel "righted" but still different. The doctors located a lump in my breast a few weeks ago, which they assure me is "not cancerous." This has proven to be another turning point in my life. When I was still unsure what they would say, I came home and thought to myself--if I have cancer what will I wish I did that I have not yet done? What will I look at and say WHY didn't you do that dummy? You wanted to!

These words have been ringing in my head for weeks. Am I happy in my path? Do I like where I live? How does my kitchen feel? Do I need a new pair of jeans? (incidentally the answer here is yes...)

Armed with a few answers I am on the road to a revamp. Three long years of waiting for a chance to look inward has arrived. My ears are open to those around me..Listening to them I mean. I believe people slowly tell you your story as you wander through life and if you pay enough attention...they will tell you when you are falling off track..or right on...or possibly alert you that your track needs a new direction.

This morning a wise man at the coffee shop mentioned that he was "surprised it has taken me such a short time to start thinking of other life pursuits."

I am listening...